I’m deciding whether or not to keep this website going.
Over the last six months, I’ve been posting rarely. I like what I’ve written, but it’s been feeling like a chore.
Several factors are contributing to this.
I’m not thinking so much these days about being childfree/childless/not having kids. It’s still a big part of who I am, but I’m also seeing routes to becoming a parent someday (whether as a stepmom, or through fostering/adoption).
This may not happen. I enjoy my independence.
But I don’t want to define myself by what I don’t have, and am not. And as I continue to date and meet new men, I don’t want them coming here and making assumptions about where our future together could go.
Also, my mind is busy with a variety of new subjects. I’ve started taking graduate business courses, and am becoming fascinated by the power of capitalism to create and solve problems.
I’ve joined a laughter club, and somehow am now a co-leader.
I’m still deeply involved in a codependent love-hate relationship with Boston.
There’s a lot going on.
More and more, this blog is feeling like a box, built to contain something I’d rather set free.
I don’t believe in leaving websites up gathering dust. But it makes me sad to trash it!
What should I do? Some options:
Rename the site and revise the “About” so it doesn’t have a childfree focus.
Leave it up as an archive.
Hit the Delete key and move on.
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